God has a way of stripping everything that we think we need, and He leaves just Himself to us. It is never an easy thing to be in that situation; one day praising God for His goodness and the next crying out to Him to make Himself known in the storm.When we have rooted ourselves to a safe place, God tends to rip us out of the ground and plant us somewhere new. We may hate it, revile Him for it, and even reject Him for a time. But when we look back, we will see that we needed to be uprooted, to be changed from that place that was slowly killing us.
God is the master gardener, He knows all His plants by name, He delicately removes the bad weeds and waters the good seeds. He does what needs to be done, so that one day we can look back and see the majesty that He was doing.
You are being made into a beautiful thing, something that God loves to watch grow. So the next time you are taken out of your comfort zone, know that Christ is slowly making you something great, because He is doing it; and He is the greatest thing.
“And so, you just do it.
You get up, and you say to yourself,
“I don’t care if my heart is bleeding. I don’t care if thinking of him touching someone else’s skin hurts so bad that some days I can’t even form sentences. I’m not going to let this ruin my life anymore.”
And just like that, you move on.
You get out of bed. You look in the mirror and whisper his name until it doesn’t mean anything anymore as it rolls off your tongue.
You wear his favorite dress and you accept that compliment from another man in the grocery store.
You get in the shower and feel his fingerprints rinse from your skin.
You lick your lips without tasting his mouth.
And baby, you move on with your life.
It will take a long time. Don’t expect to wake up one morning and never think of him again.
You’ll move on, but there will be days you still miss him.
And that’s okay, love. Some days will hurt more than others.
But you live.
You visit beautiful places, and you meet beautiful people, and you live.
You learn that he isn’t the end of everything.
You learn to be happy on your own.
And God, it is beautiful.”